Back to Work

So today was my first day back to work.  I am planning to work 2 days a week for the next couple of weeks and then return full time after Labor Day.  I thought this might be a way to ease back into working full time.  Back when I made my schedule to return 2 days a week, I wasn't really thinking that she would only have been with us a little more than 3 weeks before I went back to work.  As this day has been approaching, I have felt fairly apprehensive about leaving.  This was my first real time away from her, minus running an errand while she napped.  I am definitely not an expert on attachment and bonding, so I am not really sure what the appropriate period of time should be in this situation, but I bet the books don't say 3 weeks. I worried that she may think her mother has now abandoned her (again).  But she did great and didn't cry at all while I was gone.  What an answer to prayer.  She is such an adaptable child.  It is truly amazing given her life's circumstances. And now it makes me feel better that Chloe knows that I may not be around all the time, but that I will come back.  What a relief.  I think it will make going back to work tomorrow much easier. 

I can honestly say that going back to work with her was easier than with Caleb.  With Caleb, I worried so much that my child would not think that I loved him because I worked.  I think I carried around some of the working mom guilt.  I will never forget our nanny reassuring me on that first day that he would always know and love his mother and I have carried that with me even to this day.  I guess I know now that being a working mother does not have to scar your children.  Boy, sometimes I wish I knew then what I know now.  So there is some relief to know that Chloe will hopefully know that her mother loves her regardless if I am here day and night.

Caleb started back to school on Wednesday.  So life here is in full swing.  I was kind of proud of myself Tuesday night and Wednesday morning.  Kevin was at a meeting and I got 2 kids bathed and to bed by 8 pm on Tuesday.  Then Wednesday morning I got 2 kids up and got Caleb ready for school.  I realize people do this every day and with more children, but I haven't and it felt good that we could do all that and be to school on time. Back pat for Kim (at least in my book).  And I give props to any families who do this every day with multiple children!